:: Another Year Goes By ::

And so....The year of 2007 just passed by just like that.
Of course, time and time again, it has been an eventful year for me.
Lots of ups and downs (as usual), and i have learnt a huge lesson from it all.
It's recap time, and hopefully you won't get bored by the end of this blog (that is, if you are willing to read till the end...haha).


January 2007
It has been 8 months that i've been with HSBC/HDPM. 4 more months till my first year with them.
Life is good, and i'm happy here coz i have lotsa friends around, and more new people are joining us, which means more friends!!
This month also marks the moment i started working during weekends. I opted for this "compressed" shift actually, because :
1. Lesser calls during the weekends = less bullshit
2. I have 3 days off on weekdays - Wednesday, Thursday & Friday

Besides, the amount of staff is also lesser, which means that we are more closely-knit together.
We even called ourselves "The Compressed Shift Team" and this month was the first ever month that we went for a trip together as a team (we went to Genting. LOL)


February 2007
It's BONUS time!! Well, i got one month's bonus (i think) but it was pro-rated coz i joined the company in May 2006.
Then i was on Annual Leave during Chinese New Year for a week!
My angpow collection this year was a pathetic one though, coz my relatives somehow knew that i have already started working, so i got lesser this time around.
Anyway, i had a major crush on this dude from another department.


March 2007
Still having a huge crush on that dude (only knew his name, but don't know him personally), i was crushed when i found out that he was already engaged.
So i was shattered and seek solace from a fellow colleague/friend, whom had confessed to me that he had been fancying me for quite some time already.
And this is when it all began.
We became a couple not long after his confession.
It was a shock throughout the department, where all of my colleagues either screamed, shrieked or exclaimed after they have found out about us. It was such a funny memory till today.
Soon, the whole department, including the managers, knew about us.


April 2007
The beginning of our relationship was not as smooth as i wanted it to be, I must say. I found out about his past but then overlooked it after hearing his explanations.
Then our relationship bloomed, and went smooth.
We loved each other even more as day goes by. At one point, we couldnt even be apart from each other.
This month, we went to Penang together with the rest of our colleagues.
Next, it was his birthday, where i gave him the best gift ever.


May 2007
I accompanied him to Kuantan for his convocation.
Spent the night there. Kuantan's Telok Cempedak is lovely, very lovely.
It was my first time visiting the East Coast, and it was a lovely experience actually.
I know this might sound VERY corny, but i have to say that it doesnt matter where i go, but as long as i'm with someone I whole-heartedly love, then i'm contented.
I couldnt attend his convocation due to some reasons, so I drove back all the way from Kuantan to Seremban alone in the middle of the night.
The journey took 4 hours.
My first time ever driving such long distance alone, and having to stop at rest stops and petrol stations alone after midnight is a really butt-clenching thing to do for a girl.
But i made it home safely, only to endure endless lectures from Babihwa.


June 2007
Started to get sick of my job and everything. Felt like giving up but still holding on.
Didn't have the heart to leave just yet.
My relationship with him was rocky sometimes, but nevertheless, we still held on due to our love for each other.


July 2007
He said the most hurtful things ever.
I was left to tear endlessly after hearing his poisonous words.
He sounded so different, so cruel.
It was not over yet between us, but we were in a very complicated status.
Our relationship was like hanging on the edge of the cliff, either it was going to climb back up again, or plunge to its death dreadfully...


August 2007
Our relationship was still in a complicated status, and i tried my very best to patch things up with him again.
Somehow, the more i tried, the more hurt it caused me. Cos it seemed that it will never be the same again.
It was so torturous to me, and he made it worse by acting differently/not bothered.
Nobody knew about this, but he was one of the reasons why i tendered my resignation.
Finally, i did it. I gave a one-month resignation notice to my boss.
Of course, the main resignation reason wasn't because of him, but he was just one of the reasons.
And, i've saddened some of my colleagues by resigning.
I've got no choice at that time.
I just felt so trapped, and I just didn't know what else to do.
All i wanted was to run away from everything. Run away from him.
Coz he was causing me so much pain.
So much pain that i've never felt before...


September 2007
September 01 was my official final day with HSBC. It was seriously depressing to leave the company that i have been so proud of, and to leave so many great friends behind, whom i have grown to love.
The hardest part was to look at them in the eyes to say goodbye while fighting back tears terribly.
[I still love you guys dearly until now. All of you are so unique in your own ways, which made my heart so fond of you].

Opened a new chapter by working with Prudential. It was a completely new job, quite interesting at times, but i spent most of the time missing my ex-colleagues.
I felt constantly alone facing the new challenge, with no one i can confide in.
Constantly crying myself to sleep at night. It was horrible.
Felt even more depressed with the fact that our relationship was still in a complicated status.
And it seemed like nothing can ever heal it back.
I yearn so much for the times how we used to be...The happier times.
But deep down inside, i know that it's never gonna be the same anymore, but i still held on to a fool's hope.
At last, on September 24, it was the end of everything. The end of our 6-month relationship.
The end of his love for me.
The saddest part is, I still loved him at that time.
Imagine yourself still in love with someone whom you have shared everything with, only to be told that he doesn't love you anymore.
Yes, the pain sucks big time.
I was more than heartbroken. Heartbreak is an understatement.
I was shattered, I was broken completely.
Not only my heart was broken, my soul was torn as well.
For two whole days, i was stoned at work, but still kept a laughing self just to hide my sorrows inside. And my new colleagues thought that he meant nothing to me coz i was still laughing like nobody's business.
But they didn't know that i did that just to cover my real emotions.
I was weeping inside. I was wailing inside. I was suffering inside.
But nobody could hear it.


October 2007
Due to the incident, i found it hard to concentrate on work.
Hence, i didnt perform as well as i could have.
I was miserable and wanted to run away again.
I was just in a mess. My life has fallen apart.
I guess i was in this state because I had put too much hope in that relationship.
That was why i ended up hurting so badly.
Hurt until it jeopardized my job.
Soon, i also gave a one-month resignation notice to my boss.
I just couldnt stand it any longer.


November 2007
My last day in Prudential was November 16. The two months with them was a good one, and i've learnt a lot about life insurance.
Then it was my birthday. I seriously thought that for once, this year someone special would celebrate it with me, but i guess i was wrong.
I celebrated it alone, just like any other years before this. Never had the chance to EVER celebrate my birthday with a significant other before.
Took a break from the working world, and spent my time at home, shopping complexes or cinemas catching up with things that i've missed out on.
Done something unexpected this month that has caused my major guilt until now.
Have moved on slightly, still mending the broken pieces.


December 2007
Opened another new chapter by working in the new company.
Have moved on more now, still nostalgic from time to time though, but trying my best to forget about the past and his memories. Deleted some things just to avoid looking back.
Life is better now.
Have gotten myself in a slight mess now but it is still in control.
Changed a lot ever since the break up, and been more cautious than ever.
I even forgot what it's like to be in love. I lost all of those feelings.
It feels like it has been a long time since i have felt love.
The only love i got now are for my family and friends.
Now, thinking back, i don't think i know the old YC who was with him anymore. I felt foolish for doing so much, for falling so deep, for hurting so much.
It was definitely a huge lesson that i've learnt from.
A huge lesson to stay away from love for now.
One of my New Year's resolution was to be single for some time. Although i do have a crush on someone new now, i don't want to hold any hope now coz his case is very complicated too.
Sigh adult relationships are so complicated.
Anyway, i seriously hope that the new year would be a better one.
Enough of heartbreaks man. I dont think my heart can take another one at the moment.
That's why i wanna be single for now.
No assholes, no problems.



HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008!!!!



Lots of love
-YC LOCO-

:: The Rapid Delivery ::

Seriously, i CANNOT be provoked when i'm dead starving and/or sleepy okay.
Especially when i'm really exhausted and kelaparan after work, and after having to endure the usual excruciating traffic jam in Damansara.
And right on cue, one of McD's call centre rep pushed the wrong buttons just now.
As usual, i called the delivery number.
It was 7.50pm.
Was too lazy to dine/take away from the outlet (A very typical unhealthy busy working single adult).
As soon as i got through to a rep over the phone, i started talking to place my order.

"Hi there, I would like to......."
I stopped midway coz i heard that he was saying something at the same time.

"Miss, just to inform you that we are having some technical problems here and the delivery will take 1 and a half hours, it will arrive at 9.30pm like that, is that okay with you?"

Bear in mind that at that very moment, it wasn't even 8.00pm yet okay.

I was like what the fuck man, i haven't even placed my orders yet, and this dude is already informing me at the very BEGINNING of the call that they have a stupid technical glitch.

"What? Technical probs? ONE AND A HALF HOURS??" I was in a state of disbelief. Here i was, starving to death, and the thought of waiting for food to arrive one and a half hour later is like committing suicide. I was wondering if i could even make it to get the food from the delivery boy, when the fact is that I'll be dead by the time he arrives.

[Seriously, one and a half hours? With that amount of time, i can even drive to Seremban to buy food and come back in time man]

"I mean, the outlet in Uptown is having some technical problems, miss," he rephrased himself. "They are currently having a high volume of delivery orders, so they can only deliver at that time."

"So? Are you telling me now that if they're having some glitch, they can only deliver one 1/2 hour later?" I demanded, my fists curled up in a ball. "CAN'T you like, offer me another solution or something? I CANNOT WAIT THAT LONG, CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND THIS? AND IT'S NOT MY BLOODY FAULT THAT THEY ARE HAVING SOME STUPID GLITCH. DO SOMETHING ELSE, WON'T YOU? "

"Yes, I understand that, miss, but..."

"The outlet in Centre Point (opposite KBU) is very very very near to my place also, you know? Can't you call them instead of the Uptown one?" I suggested.

"Yes, but the thing is, your address is registered with the Uptown branch. So we can only deliver from there," he explained carefully.

"ARE YOU TELLING ME NOW THAT ONCE MY ADDRESS IS ASSIGNED WITH AN OUTLET, ANOTHER NEARER OUTLET CANNOT DELIVER TO ME?? ARE YOU KIDDING ME OR WHAT?"

"Yes, miss. The thing is....."

"Put me through to your SUPERVISOR now if you can't help me," I said firmly.

"Miss, I understand your frustration....."

"PUT ME THROUGH TO YOUR SUPERVISOR N-O-W."

"Y-you mean you want to speak to my supervisor now?" he asked.

"Y-E-S," I hissed through super gritted teeth.

It took several moments before another guy came to the line. I could even hear their discussion in the distant. Seriously, don't they have a HOLD button or something? I mean, it's so not professional to let the customer hear your discussions with your supervisor. Those who have worked/working in a call centre would understand what i'm saying.

"Hello, Alan here."

"You're the supervisor right?" I asked.

"Yes, I'm Alan here, miss."

"Hi Alan, your colleague told me just now that it would take 1 1/2 hours for the delivery from the Uptown branch."

"Yes, it's true," he confirmed. "They're having a glitch......"

[Seriously, DO I NEED to hear the same thing again?]

"I mean, I just dont understand why can't you just call the Centre Point branch instead!" I said frustratedly, cutting him off. "I dont understand your policy at all. And that branch is nearer, in fact!"

"Yes, i do understand it's nearer, but they don't have a delivery service in that branch, miss," he explained calmly.

[Well, the previous rep didnt tell me that!!!! Celaka]

"Then where else is the nearest, apart from Uptown?" I asked.

"Uptown would be the only one nearest with the delivery service, miss. I will specially arrange with them, not to worry. I will ask them to deliver to you first."

"Now, if i order now, how soon can you GUARANTEE that my food will be here?"

"Let me arrange with the Uptown branch to deliver to you within 20-30 minutes, is that okay? I WILL follow up with them," he said reassuringly.

I straightaway calmed down man.

"That's okay actually, coz that IS the normal timescale. As long as it's the normal timescale, then i'm okay," I said. Well, after all, I am paying the standard delivery charge which is RM3, so i dont see why they couldn't deliver to me in the normal timescale.

[This Alan dude is very quick in calming me down by assuring me that he'll specially arrange for me. Very good customer service, I must say. That's why i prefer speaking to supervisors. Coz they have no choice but to do something for me.]

Then he took down my orders diligently.

"I'm sorry that i was harsh to you and everything, Alan, i didn't mean to actually..."

"No, no, no it's okay, i understand actually, miss," he said warmly.

"But it's just the principle, you see. You have to provide an alternative solution to customers in this kinda situation. I can't wait that longggg and if this outlet has a problem, you'll have to get another outlet. I hope you understand," I said.

"Yes, I really do," He said. "Thanks for your order, miss, and I will call you back after i have arranged with them alright?"

"Thanks, Alan, I really do appreciate your help," I smiled.

2 minutes later (it was 8.00pm), Alan called back to inform me that they will deliver to me within 30-35 minutes approximately coz their delivery boys were all outside already.

I said thanks a lot to him anyway. It was very nice of him to arrange that and to call me back to inform me.

Then it was 8.15pm. The house phone rang.

"Hello cik, saya dari McDonalds delivery. Sekarang saya kat luar pintu you."

BRILLIANT!! They took only 15 minutes to come to my doorstep!
The best part was, i was expecting it to be around 35 minutes or something.
I was super delighted man. All thanks to the Alan dude man. He really kept his word. Really impressed by his service level.


Geez i can be such a bitchy customer from hell, seriously. And I wasn't like this prior to working in a call centre myself. Heh.
Before i knew my own rights as a customer, i would always keep quiet even if something went wrong. Coz dunno why, probably very shy to scold people like that.
But heck, ever since i got the experience of being abused over the phone berkali-kali, i started to learn to be like the customers from hell that i had.
I must learn something from Alan, coz i'm in a different call centre now, and the difference is that i'm now servicing Singaporeans ONLY, as opposed to servicing international customers previously.
Yes, Singaporeans. I know what you're thinking. It's horrible, I know.
Cos they are the world's most informed pain-in-the-ass customers.
Sorry if any Singaporean is reading this. Sorry lah, but it is a worldwide-known fact that you guys are annoyingly kiasu.
It will be a challenge, I know, but i must think of the income.
Think of the income, think of the income, think of the income, I always chant in my mind.
My motivating factor now is my salary.

:: Down Memory Lane -> Wishes ::

Sometimes I wish that I could turn back time
I check myself 'cause I was way out of line...
I only hope that we can start all over again
I must admit that I was more than wrong
I used your heart like a stepping stone
Please forgive a fool who doesn't know what to do
What do I do?


And I wish that I could have just one more chance
And I wish that I could be your pillar of strength
And I pray that you will see that what I'm saying is true
'Cause I, I wish for you...


In my mind I can see your face
You're on the breath of every word I say
If there's anyone to place a blame on it's me
Baby can't you see?
And I wish that I could have just one more chance
And I wish that I could be your pillar of strength
And I pray that you will see that what I'm saying is true
'Cause I, I wish for you...



:: Human Nature - Wishes ::







Old school man.
I think i liked this song when i was 12 or something.
I got this from their site - This song's Release Date : 27.09.96 (Yes, i was 11)
Fuhlamak. Damn jiwang man.
So much memories!! The 1990s marks the moment i discovered music and fell in love with it.
Ahhh those were the days when i can just laze around at home (after school, of course - and no, i did not ponteng sekolah) and watch Metrovision and tape recorded every musical TV programme that i watch - The UK Chart Show, Channel V's By Demand, Channel V's Asia Top 20, etc.
Geez, i still have those now-obsolete tapes at home man. And gosh i must be a fucking loser to still remember those programme names. LOL.

Okay, the part of lyrics that goes :
"...I only hope that we can start all over again, I must admit that I was more than wrong, I used your heart like a stepping stone..."

does NOT apply to me AT ALL now coz i am NOT asking my ex for any kind of forgiveness; and i certainly do NOT think that we can start all over again; and i definitely did NOT use his heart as a stepping stone, hence i was NOT more than wrong.
If there's anything that was the 'stepping stone', that would be my heart, NOT his.
But about the fool part, yeah, i must admit that i was such a fool.



Anyway, my point is, the reason why i'm posting this song's lyrics was because i liked/like this song (and definitely not coz the lyrics can relate to my love life now whatsoever) and that i screamed bloody murder in my car today when i heard it on Red104.9fm while i was stuck in the traffic jam in massive heavy rain after work.
Babihwa would call me a fucking loser. Heh
But nowadays, dunno why, been constantly digging up past memories (way back in school), so been downloading old school songs as well (shit, i have Kavana in my playlist).

:: Jiwang During Christmas ::

Phew, the jelly turned out to be fine.
I made for 50 pax okay.
Luckily, everyone said it was nice. Hoho.
Today we had an Xmas potluck in the office, as well as some prize-giving ceremony.
The prizes, or rather, "awards", were namely : Mr Congeniality, Ms Congeniality, Mr Gorgeous, Ms Gorgeous, Mr Sweet talker, Ms Sweet talker.
LOL my joker Boss got the Mr Congeniality award. (We all voted him for Mr Gorgeous actually - just to kenakan him coz we thought it was rather amusing. But he lost in the Mr Gorgeous award by just 2 votes. LOL)
Seriously, he is the most unexpected individual I've ever known okay.
What do i mean by "unexpected"?
When i was first interviewed by him 2-3 weeks ago, he looked rather intimidating, scary and stern okay.
Then, i got in and got to know that he is the TOTAL opposite from my first impression of him.
He is seriously cool, and a bloody joker wei.
We openly usik him by calling him Mr Gorgeous and he was such a good sport.
Furthermore, he volunteered to buy junk food for us (just to keep us awake in class) and he even asked us to write a list for him so that he could buy during the weekends.
LOL.
He is definitely our macha lah.


It's a Friday today, and i thought that people would be on a long Christmas + Hari Raya Haji holiday which means that the roads in Damansara would not be jammed.
I was wrong.
People are still here, and annoyingly congesting the roads.
KL drivers are muthafuckingly rude okay.
Simply cut in front of people without a damn signal (Is it damn hard to hit the signal?).
I mean, if they put their signal, i would willingly let them go in front of me.
But no, they chose to be rude and superior.
Assholes.
Anyway, while i was driving, was having so much mixed + confused feelings.
Ended up singing very loudly to "Wham - Last Christmas."
Aha...one of my fave jiwang Christmas songs.
Know the lyrics by heart already...been singing it for years.
I know the song's damn old-fashioned and the video was like made in 1984 (Fuhh check out their hairstyles man.....super ancient)
But the lyrics are damn jiwang man.

"Last Christmas i gave you my heart,
but the very next day you gave it away...
This year, to save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special...

Once bitten and twice shy
I keep my distance but you still catch my eye
Tell me baby do you recognise me?
Well it's been a year, it doesn't surprise me......"


Sigh.
Very confused now. But trying superbly hard not to think of these things at the moment.
Cos i dont wanna be hurt again.
Still haunted by the previous experience.
But i have moved on.
Learning to be very very cautious now. Have to keep my fragile heart in a good condition.
But i can't stop thinking about the new one now...
NO, no, no don't think about him...
How i wish that sometimes my heart has no feelings...




-YC LOCO-
even more LOCO than ever
now everyone knows my nickname

:: The Holiday ::

Was at home for the weekend and watched 'The Holiday' on Astro.
Love the movie.
Especially love to watch Cameron Diaz + Jude Law's parts.
Jude Law as a hot single parent + widower (Awww.....not to mention his hot accent too *winks*).
Maybe i should go for a holiday now and find some hot love just like in the movie. Heh.
I really wish i can do that.
Hmmph it's impossible coz i'm really tied up with work currently.
Busy studying day and night about credit cards. *winces*
Eat, sleep, dream about credit cards.
Gosh.
Anyway, i so love the clip + song below.
Just in case you like the song in the video, it's "The Fingertips - 'Cause to Love You."
For all of you out there who are in love.

:: Hemophobia ::

You know, I'm a real pussy when it comes to seeing blood oozing out from my own skin.
I dont know why/how i got this hemophobia.
It's quite sickening actually. I hate the fact that i'll feel nauseous and seeing stars whenever i see myself bleeding.
Perhaps the phobia started from the time when I accidently pierced my palm with a pencil in the classroom (I was 8 years old), resulting in the pencil being stuck in my palm. I dont know how i managed to do that. Heh. But i remember it was painful though.
But i don't feel nauseous seeing period blood actually, incase you're wondering if i blackout each time during the time of the month.


On Thursday, i went for a full medical check-up prior to joining the new company.
I didn't expect such 'full' medical check-up cos previously (for HSBC), I was only required to take a urine test + X-ray (I was damn happy coz i didnt have to take the blood test).
But this time around, it was a real full check-up. They checked everything - eyes, ears, throat, neck, breasts, lungs, stomach, back, X-ray, urine, feet, and lastly, BLOOD.
"Afterwards, we'll take your blood okay," the doctor said.
My heart stopped.


"M-my b-blood?"
"Yeah, for the blood test," the doctor said, very selamba-ly. "To check your hemoglobins."
"Err, i'm kinda afraid of blood, doc," I told her quietly. "I haven't got my blood taken in my entire life before - excluding baby times coz i dont remember."
"It's okay, dont worry," she smiled. Then she turned to the snobbish-looking nurse and said with a slight laugh, "Dia takut darah ni."
The nursed smiled, a bit cynically, like already expecting me to be a wimp.


I winced. Great, they were making fun of me.
"You jangan tengoklah, then you'll be fine," doctor said warmly.
Of course i wont look man.
They gave me a torchlight to grab while they were finding my vein on my left arm.
"Tak berapa nampak your vein lah," doctor said.
I panicked.
This is what i'm most afraid of. I dont want my whole arm to be poked by them many times and be blue-black afterwards.


My heart was hammering in my chest.
"Okay can find a small vein here," doctor announced.
I covered my eyes with my hand fearfully as she poked the needle into my skin.
I inhaled deeply as my pulse raced. I tried hard to keep myself calm.
Okay, the pain is bearable, I assured myself in my mind.
I kept telling my mind to distract myself. In the end, Alicia Keys' No One was playing in my mind automatically.
Think of happy things, I instructed my mind.


"Takde pun yang keluar," the nurse said.
"Memang takde pun," the doctor agreed.
Then i felt them pulling the needle out from my skin.
"There's no blood that came out," the doctor informed me, as I opened my eyes to face them.
"Huh? N-no blood? Then how?"
"I'll try with the other hand," the doctor said.


I almost cried okay.
I was wailing and screaming in my mind.
Cannot believe that i'm such a pussy.
I reluctantly gave them the other arm. This time, I checked if the vein was obvious on my right arm.
"There, there's a big vein here!" I told them delightedly, pointing frantically at the vein on my arm.
The doctor nodded, relieved.


Then once again, I felt the needle penetrating my skin. Of course, I wasn't looking.
It was quite painful actually, and my heart beats faster at every pain.
Think of happy things, I instructed my mind again.
"Dah dapat dah," I heard the doctor said.
Then once again, I felt the needle leaving my skin, and this time, there was also another pain - I could feel my blood rushing out.
My eyes felt watery with fear.
I opened my eyes to see that they have quickly covered the wound with a plaster.


For a moment, I was speechless. Probably i was in a state of shock coz this is the first time i had blood taken from me.
Then, doctor said that i'm healthy judging from all of the checks and said i may leave.
I left the room, with both arms feeling sore hanging on my side.
The whole day i walked funnily, as i couldn't really move both of my arms, so they just hung stiffly on each side while i walk.
Oh my God, i wish i can be like all of you out there who are not afraid to get your blood tested.
Why the hell am i so chickenshit?
It's just blood, damnit. It IS part of me.
This is why i think i can NEVER participate in Fear Factor.
Cos my other major fear is....heights.



....Pagi yang gelap
Kini sudah terang....


:: Hujan - Pagi Yang Gelap (I like!!) ::

:: The Sensitive Guy ::

What Kind of Guy Will You Fall For?
	You would fall for the sensitive guy. You'll find your future man wherever turtlenecks are sold. He will have depth, introspection, and a disturbing knowledge of musical theatre. And he may be a little weird. But hey, while your girlfriends cry over broken hearts, you'll be having Shakespeare read to you every night.
Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com

:: The Boy Who Will Never Grow Up ::

I must be dreaming.
I mean, indeed, it has been my dream to join them, and now it's a reality.
I am seriously gonna join them!!!!
I did it!!! I did it!!!
Hoho i am so ecstatic that even the word 'ecstatic' is an understatement.
I've never had so much desire to join a company before.

I have been trying so hard to join them, but they don't publicize their vacancies, so it's quite difficult to know if they have openings.

Furthermore, they recruit by referrals only. Hence i am really grateful to a dear friend now!!!
I actually got this by chance.

On Tuesday morning, i was supposed to start work with a non-local bank's HQ but i didnt go for it coz i know i wont like the environment (too cinapek) and the job. Of course, i informed them. Then i was seeking help from a Jobstreet's consultant to help me look for better jobs. Then, on the same day in the evening, my friend called and asked if i'm interested to join this company. I said "OF COURSE!!!"

Believe me, when you're jobless for a month, you tend to realise a lot of things.
I worry about my car, mainly. Coz my car is like Hedwig to Harry Potter. I was worried that if i go on to be jobless, i would not be able to pay for my car.

Apart from that, i have other commitments as well. The latest one would be my Prudential Life Insurance - PruLink account, which i recently bought from my ex-colleague and friend. It's cool to have my friend as my insurance agent (Well, actually i chose her to be my agent haha).

Note : It's important to be covered medically coz you'll never know when you'll meet with an accident or when you'll be diagnosed with a disease. And bad news, medical costs will increase next year so better get yourself covered before it's too late (Plus, Prudential is proven to be one of the speediest in terms of hospital fees' claims).

Anyway, i do have companies calling me for interviews and stuff, but it's just that i dont think the jobs they offered are suitable. Call me choosy, but i dont wanna choose the wrong job again. And i dont ever wanna job hop. I wanna stay somewhere. That's why i wanna take time to really find something suitable.

I dont know how i got the courage to reject that bank's offer when i dont even have a backup. But somehow i was lucky and got another offer the next day (Thanks Jesus!!)

The offer that i have always wanted.

Hehe now i felt so touched till i'm speechless. I kept thanking God after i received the call.
The phone call that determines everything, that answers everything.




Now i felt so much better (i feel fuckintastic!!), as compared to a few months back after the break up, where i was in heavy depression, suicidal and seemed lost.
As a result from my condition, i couldn't even concentrate on my work (no semangat nak kerja - completely new job somemore) and constantly giving up on everything.
Hence, in the end, i couldn't perform what i could have performed and tendered my resignation after a few months working with them.

Now, thinking back, i felt so stupid/idiotic/moronic for jeopardizing my job because of a chump.
What was i thinking back then?
I was a bloody fool back then, and perhaps i had put too much hope in that relationship, and that was why i ended up hurting so badly. Silly me.
Not to mention that i was left out in the cold to rot after it has ended. Silly me.
It took me sometime before i finally took Alex Kuga's advice.
He said:
"The best way to get over someone is - try not to know about what's happening in his life whatsoever. Don't contact him at all. Don't bother about anything about him at all."
It worked for me.

Well, at first, i gotta admit, it was difficult not to contact him (Cos it was already a habit for me so I did contact him quite often coz we are still friends despite everything), but now, it seems so easy.
Coz i have moved on. So much. And i'm happy.
Now with my new haircut and everything, i feel like an improved new person. Thinking back, the old YC who was with him is NOT me anymore.
I wont let my heart be broken like that anymore. I wont be so fucking stupid anymore. I wont be so affected or gullible anymore. I wont be with a petty/immature boy anymore.

You might laugh if you know the real reason behind the break up. Coz it was a really petty/silly issue that boys just can't handle.
To him it might be a big issue, but to me, it's just a petty issue. Well, after all, everything is a big issue to him.
This is why i want a man, not a boy.

I cringe each time my mind flashes back to how much i did for him, how much i have sacrificed for him, how much i gave him. I was like thinking, "Wah last time i am super stupid lah".
But of course, boys will never realize it, let alone appreciate it. And they will never recognise it.
Hey, come to think of it, it took me just a few months to get over him. This is considered easy coz in the past, it took me 2 years to get over someone else.
Haha.
But hey, i seriously gotta thank him for leaving me to rot coz i will never be this person if i was still with him.
I would have never gained so much desire and fighting spirit if it hadn't been for him.
My misery and agony has converted into strength and determination.
Thanks, boy.

I stay alive with this motto - Whatever that doesn't kill you will only make you stronger.
And this motto - There's no greater wrath than a woman scorned.

Thus, don't mess with the wrong girl, boy. I havent even gone into the part about your brutality even in the relationship. But, this time, I'll save the details.

Cos boy, once you've played with the wrong fire, she'll advertise you until even the fugliest git wouldnt even wanna date you, let alone lick your ass.


YC LOCO
-More LOCO than ever-

:: The Baby Fox ::

Was at home for the weekend and watched a Japanese movie on Astro Kirana titled "Helen The Baby Fox". Been wanting to watch this movie since long time ago and now finally i've watched it.
But there's one problem though.
The movie was of course in Japanese, but there was NO subtitles at all.
LOL.
It feels like watching "Summer Snow" all over again!!
A few years ago, I watched the 11 episodes Japanese series "Summer Snow" without any subtitles and cracked/damaged my brain trying to understand what was happening in the movie.
So this time, mum & I had to study their body languages and played the guessing game.
"Hey i think that's his brother. No wait, that must be the kid's father. No wait, he looks too young to be a father."
"No lah, that must be his brother lah. He looks too young," Mum said.
After the movie, i checked online to discover that the dude in question was the kid's mother's boyfriend. LOL. He was neither the kid's father nor brother.
Thank God the movie has lots of animals to reduce their lines. It's painful to interpret what they were saying. Cos i dun understand!! LOL


Anyway, back to the movie's storyline. I must say that although i didnt understand their language and without subtitles, i ended up crying profusely.
Cos i love that baby fox (named Helen) so much. She is super adorable.
And it's really heart-warming to see the kid taking care of the baby fox (it was deaf and blind..can this be any sadder? sobs)
No that's not the saddest part...You will see when you watch the movie.
Poor fox, it couldnt see and hear, hence couldnt even make a sound.
It wouldnt even drink milk at first.
The kid feels connected to the fox because both are abandoned. Well, the kid wasn't literally abandoned, it was just that he feels that his mother cared more about her career than him.
I dont know, but i just feel so sad and teary thinking about the last scenes of the movie.
Sigh.
If you are an animal lover, or u are in the mood to watch something sad, watch this movie then (It's on Youtube).
It's a very touching movie. Well, at least, to me it was. And i'm not the type who would tear up immediately while watching a movie.
Below is the proper synopsis that i got from a website.



Taichi found and picked up an adorable little fox sitting silently by the side of the road.
Taichi’s mother often left him alone to tour on her own photographic travels.
He was portrayed as a boy just tired of waiting for his parent.
And he was determined to set the record straight starting with the newly found fox.
First, he took the fox to the police station and a policeman in turn drove them to the clinic, where they met a blunt doctor and his capable, quick-witted daughter who had all the quick and wise answers.
And this was the part where it began to be memorable. Soon the doctor found out the unique condition of the fox when he did not respond to claps and hand movements :- She was deaf, blind and even lost his sense of smell due to brain damage! The conversation turn to one such person who was blind and deaf by the name of Helen.
And Taichi named her Helen on the spot. The doctor was considered giving up and put her to sleep, anesthesia, but Taichi refused and fought hard to keep her alive.